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and ****** is the love.
Qian.
4FOUR'09
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Amkss;Redcrosser
YJC;Volleyballer
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LONGGGG post ahead.
Sunday, November 14, 2010, 4:14 AM
K enough fangirling lols should blog a proper post now.Yuri is so cuteee though :D
Promo's over OP's over everyone in other schools are enjoying but not for us!
At least I have one more chance but ahhh.
mugging AGAIN till 26th nov. srsly. sick of it.
15nov will confirm what supps I need to take but its obvious I need both chem & physics?
I'm disappointed bout chem honestly, I did study ):
Ah whatever.
Life's good in school though having fun everyday (:
Realize all the friends around me daily are people I can heart-to-heart talk with :D
Well obviously can't let all problems and feelings out as naturally as I always do to wanwan & you,
cause till now in yjc there's not a single person I can fully trust.
but be contented at least there are people who care there!
But I feel sick that I have to be careful of things I say cause some people around me are like so easily offended?
I hatee it when early morning I wake to go school and first thing I see is you giving an attitude/black face.
It ruins my beautiful morning yknw..
And sometimes I wonder. Just because I'm easy-going, & people around me are less easy-going,
so every single time I must be the one giving in seeing your faces apologising when I accidentally do things you don't like, when you yourself sometimes do those things to me too?
It's sick lo I can't even be myself or feel at ease saying things without worrying if the person would be offended.
Those who know me well enough will know I'm the kind who just blabbers everything I think & feel straightforward-ly without caring much.
So you should know how irritated I feel when I have to spare a thought about every single word I say everyday..
And I don't really mind being a joke or what
but sometimes I feel really disrespected.
doesn't mean I don't mind means you can bully so far to the extent you treat me like shit no respect at all?
Haha I rant as if I really have big problems in school but no la!
Just some small issues that happens sometimes.
I'm contented with my school life :D
Hmm on thurs for the first time the clique of 4 suddenly talked to me deeply about my stuff?
Like really concerned LOL I was shocked.
I really understood their good intentions & if I'm them I'd think this way too.
But nah I know myself its because they don't understand.
I mean I only told them not more than 40% of the story seriously.
Always telling them things I do only, cause it's just weird telling people sweet things your girlfri's done, like showing off? Lol
so naturally they wouldn't know the other side of the story.
Wanted to explain but I guess there wasn't a need, and the story's too long.
and I guess as long as I myself understand and know what I'm doing, whatever everyone else think, it's fine(:
Well if you guys got read this though I doubt you do lol, hmm.. put it simply..
I'm grown-up enough to know who's worth it & I'm not dumb to give my efforts to undeserving people,
so there are actually many many things she did that made me not find others like what y'all suggested.
I just don't know how to explain to y'all everything so suddenly so I kept smiling and nodding my head to all your comments but actually..
ahh how do I say it.
I don't know how to feel when you said I deserve better cause trust me there won't be anyone better. really.
Ah nobody would understand..
But still I was quite happy somehow that this clique actually cared. Haha.
I think at times dawn's the one that understands. AT TIMES. ^^
But stop the outside world thing PLEASE.
That talk made my trust waver again but after that luckily I told myself to believe.
Whatever it is we've gone through so much I know everything best so I should trust myself and not others.
Okkkkk this is a long post.
You know I post like 70% of my true feelings (can't post exactly everything out cause it's public)
and I can't stand it at times I feel like just blabbering everything out
so I'm thinking if I should put this blog private and just invite 1person.. Lolz.